One of the things we struggle with as human beings is making peace with uncertainty. We want to be able to understand, plan and predict everything. We get a lot of comfort in certainty yet we cannot always control, successfully predict, prepare or plan everything. A huge part of life is in embracing the unknown. Let me put this in context so you understand what I am talking about.
In 2014, I had planned that by 2015 I would have the basic equipment I needed to help take my photography business to the next level. I was completing the putting together of my portfolio, I had even contacted a developer to help me work on my new website. I had talked to a couple of colleagues to partner with me to make this work. I needed about six million shillings to make this happen. I had saved up some money and I had some friends also help me out as well. Everything was working fine and going according to plan. Then one morning everything began to change. Weird stuff started happening concurrently that necessitated that I spend the hard earned savings I had patiently put together.
I struggled so much with this that it began to take my peace away. This wasn’t the plan? The plan was to start 2015 with a bang. My brand would be out there. I would show quality work, market myself and grow my client base more aggressively. Take on bigger jobs because I now have the capacity. I wanted to take the industry by storm. But none of this was happening.
So why was this important to me? Why did I want this plan to work so badly? Photography is what I do for a living. I also love photography so much that I could do it come rain or shine. I enjoy it. It’s how I express myself. Capturing various emotions, freezing moments, making history or telling a story. It has always been my dream to become a world renown photographer. How is this going to happen? What am I going to do to get all the money I need to inject into the business? If I do not get it soon, what will happen? How will I make money to live off and finance all my plans? Will I ever become a world renown photographer?
While all the pressure and stress was mounting, guess what I did? I prayed. I prayed to God to give me peace and also to give me wisdom to deal with the issue. After I prayed, I got peace about the issue and I let it go. I do not know what will happen from here but I am trusting God and that is why I am at the edge of cliff…
I am at the edge of a cliff. There is no where else to go. My only chance is to jump right over the cliff (which could also be my death). So whether I die or survive (thrive) I do not know but I have to jump anyway. I am pretty scared and afraid (I might die) but the only way to know is to jump
Trusting God is crazy. It’s like jumping off a cliff and then you are suddenly held by this weak branch almost falling and instead of providing a stronger branch, He tells you to let go and continue falling instead. I am taking a leap of faith and trusting God that all the plans I have (Which don’t seem probable at all right now) will come to pass. Just because the things aren’t happening the way you planned doesn’t mean the world has come to an end.
Psalms 37: 5-6 Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass. And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.